"Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar."
I always loved that statement----‘Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar’ meaning that sometimes things really are just what they seem. I held on to that thought for 5 days as allergies knocked me off my feet. Sometimes allergies are just allergies…unless they’re not.
I have occasional problems with hay fever, but never, ever have I been so sick with it as recently. I was puzzled by the strong allergic reactions that just kept getting worse, no matter what medication I took or what I did. I was assured by many that the pollen count was extremely high and that ‘everyone’ was having trouble.
But why me? Why now? Why so severe? Didn’t my body realize that I had meditations to record (I could barely speak), articles to write (my eyes were swollen shut) and a fresh commitment to success & being visible (I could barely sit up, let alone comb my hair)? Surely after all the commanding I’ve done, my body would be in cooperation with my dreams, not opposition. Surely a cigar was just a cigar….
I was asked…are you commanding? You bet I was….when I could have a clear thought. I commanded for every aspect of health that came to mind. My allergies seemed to get worse. And I got more frustrated and angrier. It was so bad the other night that I took a swig of Nyquil at 7:30, made a few commands about being done with it all and surrendered into my misery.
In hindsight I’d say the surrendering was the key. After 10 hours of sleep I woke up with no signs of allergies. Nothing. Not a sneeze or a sniffle. And I was filled with renewed energy and aliveness. What had happened? Why the sudden shift? Something happened during my surrender—I was tired of fighting; I was tired of struggling; I was tired of defending myself; I was tired of feeling angry and resentful.
It’s taken me a few days to realize all that was involved in those miserable 5 days of sneezing, sniffling and 3 boxes of Kleenex. Yes, a cigar is just a cigar….until it isn’t. Allergies are just allergies…unless they’re not.
Sitting in theta and commanding for clarity, I remembered my medical intuitive training: allergies are about resentment, anger and misunderstanding. Your immune system misinterprets a substance as an attack on the body & marshals its forces to protect & defend. Unresolved resentment and anger serve to lower the immune system, allowing an overreaction.
So I had to ask myself: What was the resentment and anger about? Where in my life had I felt under attack and needing to defend? As Katie & I have prepared our new teleseminar, I have been taking myself through the processes and the meditations that you who will participate will go through. Aaaah!
The teacher doesn’t get to circumvent her own learning. Old programs came up for clearing. And current events that I was unconsciously reacting to, but not willing to admit. While I had commanded for what I wanted, I had also unconsciously been unwilling to let go of some things. My body, in its divine wisdom took over and did the clearing for me! How marvelously we are made—body, mind and spirit.
I forgot that sometimes what seems like poor health is really our body & emotions coming back into divine health in the only way it knows how. And how wonderful that all this transformation took place after the surrender and during my sleep! Next time I will remember to command for that sooner! And, yes, I have commanded that my releasing & transforming be gentle and easy….with conscious awareness. I no longer need to torture myself in order to be well.
So, sometimes a cigar is really a message that is trying to get through to you. How do you know the difference? You meet yourself in the moment, command for what you want instead and go from there. Sooner or later the air clears and you can breathe again.
I always loved that statement----‘Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar’ meaning that sometimes things really are just what they seem. I held on to that thought for 5 days as allergies knocked me off my feet. Sometimes allergies are just allergies…unless they’re not.
I have occasional problems with hay fever, but never, ever have I been so sick with it as recently. I was puzzled by the strong allergic reactions that just kept getting worse, no matter what medication I took or what I did. I was assured by many that the pollen count was extremely high and that ‘everyone’ was having trouble.
But why me? Why now? Why so severe? Didn’t my body realize that I had meditations to record (I could barely speak), articles to write (my eyes were swollen shut) and a fresh commitment to success & being visible (I could barely sit up, let alone comb my hair)? Surely after all the commanding I’ve done, my body would be in cooperation with my dreams, not opposition. Surely a cigar was just a cigar….
I was asked…are you commanding? You bet I was….when I could have a clear thought. I commanded for every aspect of health that came to mind. My allergies seemed to get worse. And I got more frustrated and angrier. It was so bad the other night that I took a swig of Nyquil at 7:30, made a few commands about being done with it all and surrendered into my misery.
In hindsight I’d say the surrendering was the key. After 10 hours of sleep I woke up with no signs of allergies. Nothing. Not a sneeze or a sniffle. And I was filled with renewed energy and aliveness. What had happened? Why the sudden shift? Something happened during my surrender—I was tired of fighting; I was tired of struggling; I was tired of defending myself; I was tired of feeling angry and resentful.
It’s taken me a few days to realize all that was involved in those miserable 5 days of sneezing, sniffling and 3 boxes of Kleenex. Yes, a cigar is just a cigar….until it isn’t. Allergies are just allergies…unless they’re not.
Sitting in theta and commanding for clarity, I remembered my medical intuitive training: allergies are about resentment, anger and misunderstanding. Your immune system misinterprets a substance as an attack on the body & marshals its forces to protect & defend. Unresolved resentment and anger serve to lower the immune system, allowing an overreaction.
So I had to ask myself: What was the resentment and anger about? Where in my life had I felt under attack and needing to defend? As Katie & I have prepared our new teleseminar, I have been taking myself through the processes and the meditations that you who will participate will go through. Aaaah!
The teacher doesn’t get to circumvent her own learning. Old programs came up for clearing. And current events that I was unconsciously reacting to, but not willing to admit. While I had commanded for what I wanted, I had also unconsciously been unwilling to let go of some things. My body, in its divine wisdom took over and did the clearing for me! How marvelously we are made—body, mind and spirit.
I forgot that sometimes what seems like poor health is really our body & emotions coming back into divine health in the only way it knows how. And how wonderful that all this transformation took place after the surrender and during my sleep! Next time I will remember to command for that sooner! And, yes, I have commanded that my releasing & transforming be gentle and easy….with conscious awareness. I no longer need to torture myself in order to be well.
So, sometimes a cigar is really a message that is trying to get through to you. How do you know the difference? You meet yourself in the moment, command for what you want instead and go from there. Sooner or later the air clears and you can breathe again.
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